I have posted some text and video on the Intergenerational Justice blog I have. I think it is more fitting there than here.

My Sons Birthday!

Today was my son’s birthday! We had such a nice time getting him off to school and preparing a few thing for him before he came home. We had purchased a bike for his birthday, Eva and I, and presented it to him in the kitchen with a big bow on it when he came inside. He was so excited! We also bought him a new pair of shoes and a lego gift he can open tomorrow at his party. we have invited a few of his classmates to a gymnasium to do some bouncing and whatnot. He really enjoyed it last year, so we thought we would do it again this year.

I remember it like it was yesterday. My wife Eva and I had placed a Winnie the Pooh bear between us as we went to bed the night before his birth. We had wondered if the appointment the next day, where the doctor was going to try and turn Silverio in Eva’s belly, and we had been told that there was a possibility that he would been born that day. We looked at the bear between us and were in awe of the chance that our lives would be forever changed the next time we lie in bed together. It has been a great change indeed!

To Make You Feel My Love

When the rain’s blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I would offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven’t made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I’ve known it from the moment that we met
So no doubt in my mind where you belong

I’d go hungry, I’d go black and blue
I’d go crawling down the avenue
There ain’t nothing that I wouldn’t do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on a rolling sea
And down the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
But you ain’t seen nothin’ like me yet

There ain’t nothin’ that I wouldn’t do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy, make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love

Bob Dylan as sung by Adele

Spent most of the day with Silverio alone today as Eva was out. She had a trip to the beach for a class. Silverio and I had fun, watching the Star Wars movies, playing video games, and a trip to the mall for a build a bear. It was hard to be with out my love for the day. I was glad to spend the day with my son, but being with out my wife for the day was difficult. I love my family so much!

January 29th, 2011

I am really happy with where we are in life. I am still without a job, and that sucks. I wish that I could find something to do. It is dry out there. I worry about money. Eva knows that. I also worry about the future, but that is something that I try to get a handle on, yet I am glad that we are all safe and secure and healthy. I haven’t written much, if anything about my family, but that is because I wish to give them their privacy.

I said I worry about the future. Partly, I worry about the future of our government, and about what direction we are headed in this country. I am talking, in part, about the State of The Union President Obama gave the other day. He spoke so many generalities, and glossed over so many of the difficulties we face. He really wasn’t speaking to me or many of the people I know. Where are headed as a nation? Is our focus going to be giving more internet access to people throughout the nation, and not focus on new job creation? I need work dammit! We all do!

I am trying to not give it too much thought though, because my family will not benefit from my worry. As I said, I am happy.

 I went bowling this evening for the first time in my adult life tonight. It was great! I really enjoyed it, but who knew that there would be so many hipsters there?

Funeral

Went to a funeral the other day. Never leave something unsaid. If you love them, let them know.

Funny thing about life though. If you do something you regret, you really can’t take it back. So there is a delicate balance between the two.

Stepping Back

I gave an announcement to the DPLC that I would step back from my involvement tonight. I feel good about my decision. I thought things were going to be different than what has transpired, but that was just my naivete. I discussed with the new chair my hope to be the campaign service person in the future. He knew this and had an informal arrangement with me to give it to me. I learned at five this evening that I was mislead. The meeting for the party was at six thirty. I had an hour and a half to deal. I decided that I would outline this all in a formal notice to the party. It will appear in the minutes.

I am fine with all this. I know that there was a possibility that I would not be given a voice at the executive table an its decisions, which is what I had before. Mother Fucker! I really enjoyed that monthly meeting! Piece of shit privileged kids and there stupid decisions. But I am at peace with it because I know that I am still going to be busy. I have a number of different outlets to work with. People that do want to work with me and where I can be used. I am worth it! In the meantime, I am going to be busy looking for work. I will take care of my family, work with underrepresented communities and play my video games. I will have more time to do the things that have been lacking. I will read my Douglas Adams, listen to David Sedaris and Cheech and Chong, and be counting my points!